I sat under the full moon

I sat under the full moon tonight for. The first time it seemed though my memories re wind to the feeling profound of deja vu.
I did - I do
have a curious love for the moon.
It felt like a lifetime eternity really since I basked in her radiant light.
And inspite of myself I found her light - the light a long lost friend.
The end
Began when I let my head rule my heart now my soul just couldn't resist this lasting kiss
I once enjoyed - through my post adolescent window.
She. Would lie beside me in my bed and wrap me in her white blanket and tell me all the thing I needed to hear.
I swear
She missed me as much as I didn't realise I did miss her - until I sat beside her tonight in the glow of the night she whispered gentle to me
Familiar is she
Well known in fact as the earth spins so she moves away.
I snap back to my world all consumed by the few.
She reminds me of the me within.
 
Copyright ©2013 Norell-Lee Ramsay.

 

First 5 K

So here is the deal - I stopped being healthy - took a sabbatical , and have just been running up and down with my son as exercise, which was giving me a false sense of security, but the increasing distaste I was getting for the body I current inhabit was making me miserable. Thankfully the universe saw my intention and I get a super discounted price to start the gym  and so I started 2 weeks ago exactly. If I am honest - I HATE cardio I think it is the most mundane sort of pointless type of exercise known to man or at least this woMan - I love pushing weight the bigger the better.  So I have started and I am loving it especially since i read this article http://www.askmen.com/sports/bodybuilding_250/295_weightlifting-for-fat-loss.html and a series of others that suggest weight lifting far exceeds cardio in burning and losing body fat which is what I want .
Anyway again the universe had a plan because at the same time I planned to start the gym I signed up for a 5 k walk as a challenge.
 Let me confess that I hate crowds and racing  and all of my friends (all 3 of them including my husband )  are both smaller and fitter than I am. If i am honest I was very afraid to do something like that - what if I collapsed, what if I couldn't make it what if I were dead last ( oh the humiliation ).

The long and short  - I walked my fist 5 k yesterday and I plan to keep doing it . I felt happy after , I didn't come last , I walked in it 55:30 ( an hour was my goal). I am sooo very proud of myself and my friends who encouraged me .

To all others who follow me ...My quest for Health continues.

High C Lungs

Thought the flu was gonna kill me had the worst Asthma attack of my life and while gasping for air on Jan 4th 2013 -
 I wrote : 


My chest sings the song of a heavily weighted gong sitting firmly  on a symphonic soprano 
Lying supine on the floor with vaulted ceilings and seats galore of a highly acclaimed opera. 
There she belts out concertos at very  high C.
With the accompaniment of string sniffling and percussion sneeze.

Most it be so cold for my chest and my nose seem to compete for the most recognition.
But my chest speeds to best as flem rattles my chest as I cough it gets my full attention.

How high can you get ? How low can you go? This infernal wheeze is demanding.
For breathing my friends is a fight to the end . And all my energy leaves me just - panting. 

Copyright ©2013 Norell-Lee Ramsay.

My asthmatic friends can relate. 

TIME

Dependency can be so seductively comfortable but I chose to be my own self and not rest on  but to stand beside and then I wrote:

TIME 

Time to take a stand 
To hold myself up on my own two feet
To look neither left or right 
But to hold myself
Who am I if made in the frame and mind of the maker 
Who am I if not strong by the hand of the creator
And still I doubt the power within 
I confess my will is thin 
If lazy is my companion then no further shall I get.
When I shake my weary head and ask the question how did lazy end up so comfortably wrapped up in my bed
of life. Its time to make a choice.
Like a one night stand whose face turns sweet to sour with the dawn or a spouse no longer faithful and worthy of my Love I divorce you my un welcomed lover. 
Instead I make bed angels in my bed Alone for only within me is the answer to the questions I only dreamt of once when I was whole and not sharing my life with the one who stole
My will
Sapped it dry from my loin and my lips but no more I say no more.
It is my time -  
Time to take a stand 
To hold myself up on my own two feet
To look neither left or right 
But to hold myself. 
Go forward, Do something,Speak my mind,Be.

Copyright ©2013 Norell-Lee Ramsay.