So I have decided to take my what lef body and work out and I have started Shaun T Insanity work out . After doing the fit test yesterday all I have to say is brother I must be insane. All body parts I forgot I had are soar and people this was just a fit test sooooo can you spell mash up?
Anyway I am resolved to sort out my body. I just have to put in my two cents of confession. I am really terrified of 'getting skinny. ' I somehow feel like my weight has defined me .I discovered this with the help of my bff. I am now determined this time to not sabotage myself again and after losing the weight getting scared and putting it all back on plus extra. So INsanity it is .
I have to just say here that having my son has just motivated me on many spiritual planes. Now I need to be healthy, active, strong and fearless so I can enjoy and make the best of my experiences with him and be an example to him so he too can understand strength and fearlessness. Ding ding ding - another wake up call from the Lord. Mind, body, spirit ready for its purpose.
Tuesday, 22 May 2012
Sunday, 20 May 2012
What's Left
So after having this child and deciding to exclusively breastfeed I have what I call a 'what lef' body. I have lost some weight evidenced not by any scale as I have sworn off scales since the last one I went on lied to me wickedly and said my pregnant frame was loosing crazy weight ( ? which part?), but evidenced by the shrinking waist line and the wearing of a dress to church which didnt fit me as well as it did today in the 5 years that I owned it.
Still I find myself with a different body than I had pre pregnancy. It is let me be blunt - it jiggly and not in a good way. Now let me give out a little TMI. When I was pregnant my pelvis was spreading away at a rate giving me some serious symphysis pubis dysfunction. If you have no idea what I am talking about see link below
(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Symphysis_pubis_dysfunction)
Anyhow pain on top of pain and now 4 month later it still hurts with long standing (which is work) and long sitting (which is breast feeding/home). This has made me more than a little apprehensive about starting any work out plan particularly . Now let me be real - mi hate working out like poison (is really laziness) all of those people who talk bout endorphins and making you feel great ( you know who you are) my receptors must be dead or turned off or something cause I have no such reaction so it is even harder to be consistent. But looking in the mirror at this not so nice Jelly I have decided it is time - My already big body need a sorting out and as the Lord would have it like a sign from the Father himself I dislocated my Shoulder 2 weeks ago. So I must weight train for my upper body at least to ensure that I don't continue to dislocate (physio speak). This being said I am going to start an exercise programme - I must because this what lef body need to sort out. Serious Ting
Still I find myself with a different body than I had pre pregnancy. It is let me be blunt - it jiggly and not in a good way. Now let me give out a little TMI. When I was pregnant my pelvis was spreading away at a rate giving me some serious symphysis pubis dysfunction. If you have no idea what I am talking about see link below
(http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Symphysis_pubis_dysfunction)
Anyhow pain on top of pain and now 4 month later it still hurts with long standing (which is work) and long sitting (which is breast feeding/home). This has made me more than a little apprehensive about starting any work out plan particularly . Now let me be real - mi hate working out like poison (is really laziness) all of those people who talk bout endorphins and making you feel great ( you know who you are) my receptors must be dead or turned off or something cause I have no such reaction so it is even harder to be consistent. But looking in the mirror at this not so nice Jelly I have decided it is time - My already big body need a sorting out and as the Lord would have it like a sign from the Father himself I dislocated my Shoulder 2 weeks ago. So I must weight train for my upper body at least to ensure that I don't continue to dislocate (physio speak). This being said I am going to start an exercise programme - I must because this what lef body need to sort out. Serious Ting
Friday, 18 May 2012
The Adventures began when...
In order to share my adventures I have to start at the beginning. Now truth be told children were never high on my list of things to do. My day job involved running a fairly successful physical therapy practise. I also loved to write poetry, explore my spirit and express my faith. But seriously I never did understand (and still somewhat don't) the fascination people had with churning out children like cheese.
I would frequently ask women I will affectionately call "baby makers"what was so highly exquisite about having children and the expense and responsibility of having them and I was frequently told - you will find the money and children are just really nice to have . Really? Is that it? Well I certainly wasn't buying what they were selling. Gimme a break. Anyhow I had to my initial horror, the what I would call at the time - misfortune to find myself in May 2011 - Pregnant. Oh the Humanity!! Jesus wept and so did I. My husband was over the moon , but I felt like I had heard I was going to die. In a way, that's how it felt, because I knew - even if the baby makers would have me believe otherwise that this change for me was going to be major.
Now first of all don't let anyone tell you different- I had what some people would call a 'good pregnancy' but pregnancy SUCKS. You feel like another person, in some instances subhuman because the hormones reek havoc on everything , your perception of self, your stomach's ability to process food, all your bodily and mental function go kursponkety . I will give details in another post. But anyway I believe in the universe giving you what you need when you need it but I still wasn't sure what this little ones purpose was in my once very self sufficient life.
In January of 2012 I would find out that on another level forgetting what the baby makers have to say the real reason I believe that a child has come into my life (I cannot speak for others) was because there is a spiritual component having another human person to take care of who is new and fresh, untouched and unedited just himself. I was given the enormous responsibility to guide him through his life while allowing him the freedom to fulfill his purpose in this world.
Now I just want to love him. I want him to experience love so he will grow up with the ability to freely love himself and others. Everything else will flow from there. And now on top of everything else that I do, feel, think and express I am a Mommy too
I would frequently ask women I will affectionately call "baby makers"what was so highly exquisite about having children and the expense and responsibility of having them and I was frequently told - you will find the money and children are just really nice to have . Really? Is that it? Well I certainly wasn't buying what they were selling. Gimme a break. Anyhow I had to my initial horror, the what I would call at the time - misfortune to find myself in May 2011 - Pregnant. Oh the Humanity!! Jesus wept and so did I. My husband was over the moon , but I felt like I had heard I was going to die. In a way, that's how it felt, because I knew - even if the baby makers would have me believe otherwise that this change for me was going to be major.
Now first of all don't let anyone tell you different- I had what some people would call a 'good pregnancy' but pregnancy SUCKS. You feel like another person, in some instances subhuman because the hormones reek havoc on everything , your perception of self, your stomach's ability to process food, all your bodily and mental function go kursponkety . I will give details in another post. But anyway I believe in the universe giving you what you need when you need it but I still wasn't sure what this little ones purpose was in my once very self sufficient life.
In January of 2012 I would find out that on another level forgetting what the baby makers have to say the real reason I believe that a child has come into my life (I cannot speak for others) was because there is a spiritual component having another human person to take care of who is new and fresh, untouched and unedited just himself. I was given the enormous responsibility to guide him through his life while allowing him the freedom to fulfill his purpose in this world.
Now I just want to love him. I want him to experience love so he will grow up with the ability to freely love himself and others. Everything else will flow from there. And now on top of everything else that I do, feel, think and express I am a Mommy too
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